nothing like suffering.

i feel like my battery suddenly died
without warning me
and i have no energy left to go one step further
i feel ill in my soul
i need to recharge
but i don’t know where and how
resting in my bed sucks even more energy out
drawing awards me with more energy
but i’m so
depleted
that i can’t even move the pen
i need to feel this and
embrace the suffering
in order to grow
and it will
pass and leave me
stronger
but it is still
shattering
to feel (like)
nothing
all the time.